Having a lot of what I call "lightning storms" right now. Sudden storms of panic, usually fram sadness and despiration. Lots of head-pushing in an attempt not to head-bang. I was having a very hard time with words earilier, but forced myself to get the laundry that has been sitting in the basement for a few days, and to take a shower. That's where the lightening storms started, though I could feel them creeping on earlier. Writing this has quieted them, but I'm exhausted.